Today’s reading of Psalm 44 was held while I was sitting upright on my bed. My roommate had just left for work and prior to that, I thought I’d give her a verse of the day. So instead of reading a Psalm then a chapter of Proverbs as my planned daily ritual, I had jumped to Proverbs 12 where the verse 16 popped out as a godly reminder without the holy jargons, something a yet-believer could take in. “A fool shows his annoyance at once, but a prudent man overlooks an insult.”
So I flipped a few pages back to the Psalms and was moved to pray:Heavenly Father, God of ancient days, the God of Adam and Eve, Abraham, Noah, Moses, Joshua, Jacob, Joseph, Samuel, Hannah, David, Peter, John, Matthew, Mark, Luke, James… I have read what you did in their days, in days long ago. (v1) It was not with the nomadic tent leadership of Abraham, the rod of Moses, the sword of Joshua, the slingstone of David, the camel clothes of John…that saved them. It was your right hand, your arm, and the light of your face that gave them victory. (v3) It was your help, your support, your anointing, the vision you have placed in their hearts, the favor you have shed on their faces, the hope you have assured them in. I do not trust in my bow, my sword does not bring me victory. (v6) The Bible men have their bows and swords and maybe in the eyes of their enemies, these are the weapons of destruction that had enabled them to achieve success. But God, my brain, my eloquence, my actions, my words, my talents, my money….all of me will not bring me victory. Only if your right hand upholds me, your arm enables me, and the light of your face assure can I step into triumph against these obstacles I’m in: thesis, relationships, ministry (how to bring more people to you, salvation of family…) So in you will I boast all day long, and I will praise your name forever. (v8) Help me to be like the psalmist who despite all of the rejection, the retreat, the scorn, the derision, the disgrace they had gone through (v9-16), had declared that they had not forgotten your name nor had been false to your covenant (17). They have not turned their hearts against you, nor had their feet strayed away (v18). For your sake, they endure (v22). Because they are so sure of a redeeming God who, because of His love, would rise up and help them from the dusty ground they are in (v26). They are very confident in His promise that weeping may remain for a night but rejoicing comes in the morning. (30:5) Father, help me to be faithful and trusting, just as how you are faithful and loving. Enable me to let the past experiences be the confidence for the present and future. Because you are the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. You have enabled me to go through 30 years of life, 24 of those in school, and if right now my greatest challenge is my thesis, looking back, haven’t you finished two theses and hundreds of newspaper and magazine articles? So this thesis would just be an addition to our victory list! ya-a!
The hope in the God of yesterday will be the same object of hope today and tomorrow. If I had forgotten how to step ahead, I’ll recall how I managed to be in the step where I am.